Very Personal Reflections

This post is going to be an off-shoot of the typical and more personal.

Praise God for counseling!
I had the privilege of meeting with a wonderful counselor to discuss different things I am struggling with. During the course of our conversation, some things were pointed out for which I am very grateful.

1. I can be open before God about my faults

• not picking up on social queus (not necesarrily a sin, but definitely a source of problems)
• my neediness (wanting people around me for my benefit, asking others to serve me, rather than extending myself in service to those around me)
• being willfull, everyone should NOT conform to my wants and needs
• wanting to be God (I want control over outcomes, all the time... I want control over the blessings and praise I recieve from people)

2.  Wanting praise and recognition from people is a low goal.

• praise from people is somewhat controllable
• when people give me accolades I would reward them with "gifts" or when I feel disrespected I would want to punish them and myself by withdrawing...
• What I need to aim for is praise from God. JAmes 4 says that God exalts the humble. I have no control over how or when God will praise me, but I have to start by taking myself out of the center and placing my Heavenly Dad in the center

3.  If I dated or married someone where they were how I based my worth, significance, etc. I would be making them a tool.

I hope this blesses someone :)